Written by Deborah Ellis
Groundwood Books
978-1-77306-121-4
224 pp.
Ages 13+
October 2019
Reviewed from advance reading copy
Deborah Ellis's opening words "There but for the grace of God go I" from John Bradford are prophetic ones that resonate throughout her latest
young adult non-fiction book as young offenders, recent and not,
and others unmask family histories, criminal offences and misdeeds,
judgements and outcomes. They are stories that could be anyone's but these are their own voices, told as they lived or recall, and they deserve to be heard.
Over twenty young people, named only by their first name and age, were interviewed by Deborah Ellis,
a process which she explains in her introduction. Their stories include
domestic abuse, poverty, addictions, bullying, foster care,
loss, mental health struggles and family dysfunction. Their stories are
as diverse as the individuals profiled and we learn a lot about each
person beyond the crimes that drove them into the criminal justice
system. But there are the crimes, from theft to assault, vandalism and
arson, and trafficking of drugs and weapons. Still Deborah Ellis
gives these young people the opportunity to explain. To explain where
they came from, what they were thinking, what they were feeling, and how
justice may or may not have been served. Many are hopeful, trying to
see beyond their pasts and their pains and their crimes, and make
futures for themselves and their families for which they might be proud.
They're not perfect, but then none of us are, and some minimize their
responsibilities for choices made while others own their
decisions and circumstances.
I don't know if I'll ever get rid of the pain I'm carrying. Maybe I can turn it into something not so heavy. (Lindy, 19)
But Deborah Ellis
does more than just give voice to these young offenders. She offers
background information about anger, foster care, abusive relationships, witnessing abuse, restorative justice and the importance of a high school diploma. In a question accompanying each young offender's story,
she makes the reader think about how they might address the issues which these young people have experienced and makes suggestions about how to make
things better in her "Taking Steps" sections. Still the best advice
often comes from the young people themselves.
In addition to the twenty plus young people she highlights, Deborah Ellis also gives voice to past offenders and those who work with young offenders–these are each identified as a "Voice of Experience"–and family members of offenders. Their perspectives, from the distance of time and the other side of the justice system and from the heartfelt viewpoint of family, give different frames of reference to the hardships with which these young people have been dealt or are dealing.That little thing that's in the back of your head, that says, "Don't do this!"? Listen to it the first time. (Beth, 19)
Deborah Ellis has always sought justice in letting those whose voices are rarely heard speak freely. From Three Wishes (2004) and Off to War (2008) to Kids of Kabul (2011) as well as Looks Like Daylight (2013), Deborah Ellis has let us hear what Palestinian and Israeli children, children affected by AIDS, soldiers' children, Iraqi refugees, and Indigenous kids have to say. She holds true what Maya Angelou acknowledges so eloquently in I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings: "There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you."
With My Story Starts Here, Deborah Ellis has released the untold stories of young offenders and hopefully provided them with another step forward to healing.
