Call Me Gray

Written by Andrew Larsen and Bells Larsen

Illustrated by Tallulah Fontaine

Kids Can Press

978-1-5253-1135-2

32 pp.

Ages 4-8

October 2025 

 

For a four-letter word, "gray" packs a lot of meaning. It can mean the colour that is between black and white, the two sides that allow no middle ground. It can mean the dullness of a cloudy day with the absence of sun pulling a pall over everything. It can also reflect a feeling of detachment or depression, far more profound than the blues of sadness. But, for the child in Andrew Larsen and Bells Larsen's story, it's a name that holds colour and brightness, sunshine and joy.

From Call Me Gray, written by Andrew Larsen and Bells Larsen, illustrated by Tallulah Fontaine

It's the beginning of winter, and an unnamed child is looking forward to some wonderful traditions that they and their father partake in, starting with the building of their ice rink. But this year, this child knows something has changed.

But this year feels different.

 

It's not the snow

and it's not the cold.

 

It's me. 

 (pg. 6)

 

From Call Me Gray, written by Andrew Larsen and Bells Larsen, illustrated by Tallulah Fontaine

As they build their ice rink, the child hesitantly tries to gain some clarity to their feelings. A  recent incident, in which their best friend doesn't invite them to her sleepover because it's only for girls, has them saddened and perplexed. Talking to their dad, the child asks some very big questions including, "Do you ever feel mixed up about who you are?" (pg.12) Their dad tries to answer this and other questions but it's obvious that he's not grasping exactly what his child is asking. Still, as their work progresses, there is one statement that makes their dad stop and think and appreciate what his child is saying. 

"I look like a boy but

sometimes I feel more

like a girl."  

   (pg. 15)

And with that meaningful communication,  a subtle but monumental change begins to take place in the midst of enduring winter traditions.

From Call Me Gray, written by Andrew Larsen and Bells Larsen, illustrated by Tallulah Fontaine

I have reviewed so many Andrew Larsen books, both picture books and middle-grade fiction, including Goodnight, Hockey Fans (2017),  Dingus (2017), and Me, Toma and the Concrete Jungle (2019), and each one seems deeply personal. Call Me Gray has that same overtone, perhaps because Andrew Larsen has written it with his son, and the two have spoken of Bells Larsen's own experiences as a transgender person. I don't know if Andrew Larsen and Bells Larsen built ice rinks together and enjoyed hot chocolate afterwards, but the relationship between father and child in Call Me Gray is a touching one without being saccharine. In fact, it's quite real. They speak, they interact, and they question as they try to understand themselves and the other. And it's obviously a safe space in which to question and to make choices. 

From Call Me Gray, written by Andrew Larsen and Bells Larsen, illustrated by Tallulah Fontaine

This is the first children's picture book that Edmonton's Tallulah Fontaine has illustrated,  though her work has been featured on advertising displays and in numerous publications including the New Yorker, the New York Times, and The Economist. Rendered in gouache and finished digitally, her illustrations focus on that which is important: the relationship between the child and their father, as well as others. Tallulah Fontaine shows them pounding stakes, shovelling snow, and chatting while they work. She shows them putting on their skates and skating and always interacting, either in silence or in important conversations. Their work, together to build rink or to build understanding, is the goal. And Tallulah Fontaine always conveys much in the faces of her characters, whether it be disappointment, confusion, contentment, or hope.

Call Me Gray may become a wonderful story starter for challenging conversations about gender identities or about encouraging self-expression or about building an ice rink. It might help children share their feelings, or help their parents establish safe spaces to discuss big issues. But Call Me Gray may also take "gray" out of the unfavourable realm and move it into one of inclusivity and association and positive change.

I Am Cherished

Written by Onome Ako

Illustrated by Ken Daley

North Winds Press (Scholastic Canada)

978-1-4431-9449-5

32 pp.

Ages 6-8

August 2024 

 

For many kids, starting at a new school can be exciting but also trepidatious. Kikelomo, a child full of colour and brightness, is very excited about making new friends. But her first experience with sharing her name becomes less of welcoming and more of distress when she hears her classmates' reactions.

From I Am Cherished, written by Onome Ako, illustrated by Ken Daley

As the kids in the class introduce themselves in a circle, calling back each other's names to learn them and to welcome them, Kikelomo can't wait to share. But when they giggle and tell her that her name is weird and not normal and too long, the child is left in tears.

From I Am Cherished, written by Onome Ako, illustrated by Ken Daley

At home, her Nigerian Mommy and her Mohawk Nation Daddy remind her of her heritage and that her name means a child who is cherished. Recalling all the ways in which she has felt cherished, from having a bedtime story read to her, or singing in Yoruba with her grandma, or playing with her cousins, Kikelomo is invigorated to appreciate her name.

From I Am Cherished, written by Onome Ako, illustrated by Ken Daley

At school the next day, when the class joins for their circle, Kikelomo tells everyone what her name means and the ways her family make her feel cherished.

Calling me by my name reminds me of what it means.

With that admission, Kikelomo opens the door for others to share how they got their names, including Mr. Santos whose first name is Elvis, and for them to practise saying her name and reminding her that she is cherished at school as well as home.

 

Children can be unintentionally cruel when they are faced with something different, whether it be a name or food or activity. It is more a reflection of what they can't do, like say an unfamiliar name, then that they don't like something. Unfortunately, the recipients of that harshness–Kikelomo in this case–will be hurt, until a connection can be made that brings the two together. Brilliant little Kikelomo, with her courage to speak up and share her name's story, invites them to know her story and share their own. By letting the children make a connection through the sharing of their names, Nigerian-born Toronto author Onome Ako makes them all belong and brings back Kikelomo's bright light. No matter what a child's story is, from whence they came, or what language they speak, or what they look like, they all belong, and their differences just make for a richer community. I hope that Morenike, Onome Ako's daughter and the inspiration for the book, had as positive a resolution, i.e., the making of many friends, as Kikelomo does once they learned the melodic and expressive nature of her name.

 

Ken Daley, an illustrator born in Cambridge, Ontario, keeps the brightness of Kikelomo and lets it shine throughout the story. Ken Daley's digital art uses the full spectrum of colours, giving us a story of sunshine and joy, never letting Kikelomo's disappointment tarnish her story. That blip of dejection is fleeting and cancelled through the love of her family.

 

Kikelomo's story would be a lovely introduction for a first day of school class, to share naming traditions and perhaps even bridge to discussions of family and heritage. If Onome Ako and Ken Daley's book I Am Cherished helps even one child make a connection with another child unlike themselves, it will be gratifying as a first day of school read.